This will be quick because I'm about to head to bed.

I will apologize in advance for the lack of posts here.  I know I have several days in China to blog about and tons of pictures and videos to upload and share, but right now, we are just...surviving.

I'm not usually one to complain, but these past days have been the hardest I have ever experienced in my life.

I won't go into details because I have done, said and thought things I am not proud of, but sleep deprivation can do that to a person.  Kylie is not the sleeper here that she was in China.  And yes, if you can suggest it, we have tried it.

We have gotten progressively less and less sleep each night.  Last night, we put her on the couch to sleep (where she has been taking naps) and I slept in the recliner while Steve took the bed (with the door closed) and she slept from 10 until about 3:30 when she had to be picked up and held the rest of the night.  So I got several hours, which is better than the coupe I'd been getting.  We hope we are turning a corner, but I'm scared to hope.

The past few days I have cried harder and more often than I have in my entire life.  I have prayed harder than I have my entire life.

So, pray.  Pray hard that this is the first of many better nights.  Steve has the recliner tonight.  I have the bed.  I won't lie.  I'm looking forward to it.  But already feeling guilty if she doesn't sleep as well.  I'm praying hard too.

I'll be back on here soon.  Until then, thanks for your prayers.


Vicky said...

Sandra . . .praying for sleep!

Maryalice said...

All I can say is that I know EXACTLY what you are talking about with this sleep thing, the thoughts, everything. I am praying for you! Sending tons of love and hugs your way. My earnest prayer for you all is that by this time next week, life will be so much better for you all in this area. In Jesus' name!! :))