What I really want to do is pour my heart out in this post. I want to show you all the pain in my mind and heart. But these things aren't able to be put into words that would do them justice so it will be "just the facts".
I went to spend time with Daddy today. It had been almost a week since I'd seen him and I can tell you he looked a lot worse today than he did only a week ago. He is not eating much at all. I realized today that I would get excited over the 5 bites of peaches he took and cup of water he drank one day, but that would be all he had that day and probably all he would eat for 2 or 3 days and that is just not enough to sustain life. Today that reality hit me fully in the face.
I have to be honest, I can not see how he is continuing to hang on. There are not words enough to describe how thin this nearly 6 foot tall man is now. Let me make it clear...I am watching him starve to death. I understand now the court cases surrounding removal of feeding tubes. Daddy was absolutely clear throughout his life that he never wanted to be kept alive with a feeding tube and we have honored those wishes. However, if there were already a feeding tube in place, removing it, after seeing what I have, would be awfully hard.
It is just a matter of time now. I would say no more than 2 weeks at most. That's just my guess. He could hang on longer. Only God knows.
He was aware of us being there today. When I came into the room, he recognized me and reached for me. He hugged me and when I kissed him and told him I loved him, he said he loved me too. Each time I'd leave the room he'd tell me to be careful. The two things he said his entire life to me, he says now, in death, "I love you" and "Be careful". That's my Daddy for you.
To you who have sent emails and left comments on my Facebook...thank you. Keep the prayers coming. I know I will need them in the days ahead.
5.31.2009
5.30.2009
Weekend News...
Several things to update you on...
Daddy is about the same. Some hours are better than others. I really don't know that there is much more to say. Most of the time he's not really lucid. His breathing is extremely labored. He has been eating a little tiny bit. That's about all there is to report.
Chase's mom received a letter from him today. He said he was doing well and it wasn't as bad as he thought it would be (thought I think it is definitely as hard as he imagined!). He said he loved us all and to tell everyone to write as much as they could especially me and Steve. I guess he won't be disappointed! I put two letters in the morning mail on Friday, one today and I have one for Monday and Wednesday! I'm SO relieved to hear from him even though it is secondhand. And I'll be hoping that he sends us something soon!
So, this weekend has been full and fun. Last night, we went to the little fair in the neighboring town. I have a child that has no fear and the first ride she chose to ride was one that I had to ride with her. I can't remember the name of it, but it was fast and went around and around. This picture is while we were riding and I thought it was hilarious!
We rode most of the bigger rides now that she's tall enough to ride them. Here we are on the Ferris Wheel.
Then today we met our friends the Rhineharts at the Rec center pool. It was perfect weather for swimming although the water was a tiny bit cool. There were many great photo ops!
Tonight we went to a party at our friends the Hebdens who just moved to Spring Hill. I do have a couple pictures from that, but I haven't uploaded them yet so you'll just have to use your imagination! The Millsaps are on their way over to watch a movie, so the fun is just beginning!
Tomorrow I have to do laundry and then I think I'll visit Daddy before night church and South Campus training tomorrow night. Monday is a special day...our 13th wedding anniversary! Lucky 13!
Daddy is about the same. Some hours are better than others. I really don't know that there is much more to say. Most of the time he's not really lucid. His breathing is extremely labored. He has been eating a little tiny bit. That's about all there is to report.
Chase's mom received a letter from him today. He said he was doing well and it wasn't as bad as he thought it would be (thought I think it is definitely as hard as he imagined!). He said he loved us all and to tell everyone to write as much as they could especially me and Steve. I guess he won't be disappointed! I put two letters in the morning mail on Friday, one today and I have one for Monday and Wednesday! I'm SO relieved to hear from him even though it is secondhand. And I'll be hoping that he sends us something soon!
So, this weekend has been full and fun. Last night, we went to the little fair in the neighboring town. I have a child that has no fear and the first ride she chose to ride was one that I had to ride with her. I can't remember the name of it, but it was fast and went around and around. This picture is while we were riding and I thought it was hilarious!
We rode most of the bigger rides now that she's tall enough to ride them. Here we are on the Ferris Wheel.
Then today we met our friends the Rhineharts at the Rec center pool. It was perfect weather for swimming although the water was a tiny bit cool. There were many great photo ops!
Tonight we went to a party at our friends the Hebdens who just moved to Spring Hill. I do have a couple pictures from that, but I haven't uploaded them yet so you'll just have to use your imagination! The Millsaps are on their way over to watch a movie, so the fun is just beginning!Tomorrow I have to do laundry and then I think I'll visit Daddy before night church and South Campus training tomorrow night. Monday is a special day...our 13th wedding anniversary! Lucky 13!
5.29.2009
Amish Love
What’s all the hubbub about Amish fiction? Major media outlets like Time and ABC Nightline are covering it, and authors like Cindy Woodsmall are making the New York Times bestseller list regularly. What makes these books so interesting?
Check out the recent ABC Nightline piece here (http://abcnews.go.com/Nightline/story?id=7676659&page=1) about Cindy and her titles When the Heart Cries, When the Morning Comes, and When the Soul Mends. It’s an intriguing look at Amish culture and the time Cindy has spent with Amish friends.
And don’t forget that Cindy’s new book The Hope of Refuge hits store shelves August 11, and is available for preorder now.
Check out the recent ABC Nightline piece here (http://abcnews.go.com/Nightline/story?id=7676659&page=1) about Cindy and her titles When the Heart Cries, When the Morning Comes, and When the Soul Mends. It’s an intriguing look at Amish culture and the time Cindy has spent with Amish friends.
And don’t forget that Cindy’s new book The Hope of Refuge hits store shelves August 11, and is available for preorder now.
5.28.2009
Chase's Address
Many of you have asked for it, so here it is...Chase's address at boot camp.
RCT Taylor, Steven C/8805
Platoon 1053 , Co "C" 1st RTBN
P.O. Box 11053
Parris Island , SC
29905 - 1053
If anyone out there wants to write a card or letter of support, I have heard that those are very important to recruits during bootcamp. Steve and I would love it if you would drop him a line. I know several of you have already asked me if you could do so and to you, THANK YOU!
Please note that letters and cards are fine, but nothing large, bulky and no food items. I'll have more information about what can and can't be sent, but until now, these guidelines should suffice. Also, the recruits only get about 1 hour per night (if that) to write, so please don't be offended if you don't get a return letter or note. Just know that he's receiving them and that we all appreciate your support.
We are sending our letters out with the morning mail so hopefully he'll have something from home in just a few days.
And feel free to forward this around to any of your friends or church members that might like to write as well. I have heard the first 5-6 weeks are the toughest as they are being broken down and so as much encouragement as they can get is definitely needed.
Thanks!
RCT Taylor, Steven C/8805
Platoon 1053 , Co "C" 1st RTBN
P.O. Box 11053
Parris Island , SC
29905 - 1053
If anyone out there wants to write a card or letter of support, I have heard that those are very important to recruits during bootcamp. Steve and I would love it if you would drop him a line. I know several of you have already asked me if you could do so and to you, THANK YOU!
Please note that letters and cards are fine, but nothing large, bulky and no food items. I'll have more information about what can and can't be sent, but until now, these guidelines should suffice. Also, the recruits only get about 1 hour per night (if that) to write, so please don't be offended if you don't get a return letter or note. Just know that he's receiving them and that we all appreciate your support.
We are sending our letters out with the morning mail so hopefully he'll have something from home in just a few days.
And feel free to forward this around to any of your friends or church members that might like to write as well. I have heard the first 5-6 weeks are the toughest as they are being broken down and so as much encouragement as they can get is definitely needed.
Thanks!
News to Share
Some of you know, I'm a blog-ho. Really, I read A LOT of blogs. There have been two this week that have really impacted me and I'd like to share them with you.
Many of you already read MckMama's blog and if you don't, let me tell you, you are MISSING out. She is hilarious and has a tremendous testimony. One of her MSC (many small children...you'll understand this if you read her blog) we have been praying for...see that button for Stellan on my blog? Yep, that's MckMama...check out her latest post...you'll be really glad you did. And if you spend any time on her blog you'll get hooked. I promise.
Another blog that has more recently been added to my roll is Stuff Christians Like. Again, Prodigal Jon is HI-LARIOUS! But yesterday's post was definitely something to think about. I encourage you to read it...
Several of you have asked for updates on my dad. We went to visit for a bit on Monday and he was doing about the same. Sleeping when we got there but Bertie had been able to get a few bites of peaches down him and about 3/4 cup of water. She had pulled back on the high dosages of sedation in hopes that he would stay calm but be more alert. She took Jenna to the grocery store while we were there because she is his caregiver almost 24/7 and almost doesn't ever have time to do these things. I sat by his bedside the whole time holding his hand and occasionally talking to him. At one point, I thought that I would feel much better if he'd just open his eyes and be able to see me (you know, really SEE me) and say "I love you" one more time. I had bowed my head to pray this prayer when I felt the tears start welling in my eyes. No matter how old you are or what your relationship, I don't think you are ever ready to lose a parent. I know that Daddy isn't perfect, but in the end, he was MY Daddy and I love him despite his faults and imperfections. Afterall, isn't that what we are called by God to do? None of us are better than the other. We are all sinners in need of Grace.
Anyway, I digress. While I was praying, I looked up at his face and his eyes were open! And I could tell they weren't just open, but they were aware. I started talking to him and while he is nowhere near being able to carry on a conversation, he was able to ask for some water. We got him some water and he drank another 3/4 cup and finished nearly ALL the peaches I fed him. He continued to be aware and recognized Steve and Jenna (when she got back from the store). When we went to leave, I hugged him, kissed him and told him that I loved him. And he told me that he loved me too...which lets me know that he was really understanding. He smiled several times at all of us. I left feeling much better than when I arrived.
I talked with Bertie yesterday and she said he'd had a rough night and really rough morning. He was agitated, having a very difficult time breathing even while laying down and in some amount of pain. Last night, the update was much of the same except he wasn't nearly as agitated as before. Let me tell you, lung disease is not a pretty way to die. You basically suffocate to death but very slowly. It's definitely a cruel disease. So to all of you smokers out there, I beg you to kick the habit NOW. DO NOT make your family watch you slowly suffocate to death. And just because you think it won't happen to you doesn't mean it won't.
Off my soapbox now...
Thanks for your prayers and comments. I have had some ultra-sweet comments about memories of my mom and dad from friends and they bring such comfort to me. We still have no idea how long he will be with us, but I am enjoying every minute that I can.
Until later....
Many of you already read MckMama's blog and if you don't, let me tell you, you are MISSING out. She is hilarious and has a tremendous testimony. One of her MSC (many small children...you'll understand this if you read her blog) we have been praying for...see that button for Stellan on my blog? Yep, that's MckMama...check out her latest post...you'll be really glad you did. And if you spend any time on her blog you'll get hooked. I promise.
Another blog that has more recently been added to my roll is Stuff Christians Like. Again, Prodigal Jon is HI-LARIOUS! But yesterday's post was definitely something to think about. I encourage you to read it...
Several of you have asked for updates on my dad. We went to visit for a bit on Monday and he was doing about the same. Sleeping when we got there but Bertie had been able to get a few bites of peaches down him and about 3/4 cup of water. She had pulled back on the high dosages of sedation in hopes that he would stay calm but be more alert. She took Jenna to the grocery store while we were there because she is his caregiver almost 24/7 and almost doesn't ever have time to do these things. I sat by his bedside the whole time holding his hand and occasionally talking to him. At one point, I thought that I would feel much better if he'd just open his eyes and be able to see me (you know, really SEE me) and say "I love you" one more time. I had bowed my head to pray this prayer when I felt the tears start welling in my eyes. No matter how old you are or what your relationship, I don't think you are ever ready to lose a parent. I know that Daddy isn't perfect, but in the end, he was MY Daddy and I love him despite his faults and imperfections. Afterall, isn't that what we are called by God to do? None of us are better than the other. We are all sinners in need of Grace.
Anyway, I digress. While I was praying, I looked up at his face and his eyes were open! And I could tell they weren't just open, but they were aware. I started talking to him and while he is nowhere near being able to carry on a conversation, he was able to ask for some water. We got him some water and he drank another 3/4 cup and finished nearly ALL the peaches I fed him. He continued to be aware and recognized Steve and Jenna (when she got back from the store). When we went to leave, I hugged him, kissed him and told him that I loved him. And he told me that he loved me too...which lets me know that he was really understanding. He smiled several times at all of us. I left feeling much better than when I arrived.
I talked with Bertie yesterday and she said he'd had a rough night and really rough morning. He was agitated, having a very difficult time breathing even while laying down and in some amount of pain. Last night, the update was much of the same except he wasn't nearly as agitated as before. Let me tell you, lung disease is not a pretty way to die. You basically suffocate to death but very slowly. It's definitely a cruel disease. So to all of you smokers out there, I beg you to kick the habit NOW. DO NOT make your family watch you slowly suffocate to death. And just because you think it won't happen to you doesn't mean it won't.
Off my soapbox now...
Thanks for your prayers and comments. I have had some ultra-sweet comments about memories of my mom and dad from friends and they bring such comfort to me. We still have no idea how long he will be with us, but I am enjoying every minute that I can.
Until later....
5.27.2009
Blog Review: Night Watchman
This is the second fiction book that I've reviewed and I was equally impressed. I'll admit, it doesn't take much for me, but this one was super-suspenseful and I didn't know whodunit until the very last chapter or two.
Night Watchman is about a retired homicide detective, Ray Quinn, who lost his partner (and also the love of his life), Trisha, in a shoot-out which left him critically wounded. After his forced retirement, things spiral downward for him as he is left with only fractured pieces of what his life used to be. That is, until he stumbles upon a mystery that appears to be connected to the shooting that injured him and took the life of his partner. In this book, he sets out to solve the mystery and avenge Trisha's murder.
The book is written by Mark Mynheir. This is the first book of his that I've read, but I can assure you, I will be adding him to my "list".
More on Night Watchman:
Ray Quinn is a tough, quick-witted homicide detective in love with his partner, Trisha Willis. She gives Ray something to live for—something to hope in. Until a barrage of bullets leaves Trisha murdered and Ray crippled.
Struggling with his new physical disability and severe depression, Quinn turns to whiskey, scorn, and a job as a night watchman to numb the pain. But when a pastor and dancer are found dead in an apparent murder-suicide, the pastor’s sister approaches Quinn for help.
Reluctantly, Quinn takes the case and is plunged into the perilous Orlando. Soon he discovers that, not only was the pastor murdered, but the case may be linked to his and Trisha’s ambush. Torn between seeking revenge or responsibility, Quinn is thrust into the case of his life.
Author Mark Mynheir gives readers his most profound police thriller to date with The Night Watchman (first book in The Night Watchman Private Detective Agency Series). Readers of all ages will devour this gripping murder mystery that bristles with tension and intrigue. In a taut cop-style all his own, Mynheir delivers an inside look at the thoughts, feelings, fears, and challenges police officers experience while investigating violent crimes and the lost souls who commit them.
I highly recommend this book...and as always, you have the chance to win a copy from right here on my blog. I have 2 copies to give away, so leave me a comment below or send me an email to sandras_junk@charter.net by next Wednesday, June 3, 5pm central. I'll draw two lucky winners and even pay to have the book shipped to you if you are not local.
If you are too impatient to wait for the drawing, you can always purchase the book here. Good luck and enter NOW!
Night Watchman is about a retired homicide detective, Ray Quinn, who lost his partner (and also the love of his life), Trisha, in a shoot-out which left him critically wounded. After his forced retirement, things spiral downward for him as he is left with only fractured pieces of what his life used to be. That is, until he stumbles upon a mystery that appears to be connected to the shooting that injured him and took the life of his partner. In this book, he sets out to solve the mystery and avenge Trisha's murder.
The book is written by Mark Mynheir. This is the first book of his that I've read, but I can assure you, I will be adding him to my "list".
More on Night Watchman:
Ray Quinn is a tough, quick-witted homicide detective in love with his partner, Trisha Willis. She gives Ray something to live for—something to hope in. Until a barrage of bullets leaves Trisha murdered and Ray crippled.
Struggling with his new physical disability and severe depression, Quinn turns to whiskey, scorn, and a job as a night watchman to numb the pain. But when a pastor and dancer are found dead in an apparent murder-suicide, the pastor’s sister approaches Quinn for help.
Reluctantly, Quinn takes the case and is plunged into the perilous Orlando. Soon he discovers that, not only was the pastor murdered, but the case may be linked to his and Trisha’s ambush. Torn between seeking revenge or responsibility, Quinn is thrust into the case of his life.
Author Mark Mynheir gives readers his most profound police thriller to date with The Night Watchman (first book in The Night Watchman Private Detective Agency Series). Readers of all ages will devour this gripping murder mystery that bristles with tension and intrigue. In a taut cop-style all his own, Mynheir delivers an inside look at the thoughts, feelings, fears, and challenges police officers experience while investigating violent crimes and the lost souls who commit them.
I highly recommend this book...and as always, you have the chance to win a copy from right here on my blog. I have 2 copies to give away, so leave me a comment below or send me an email to sandras_junk@charter.net by next Wednesday, June 3, 5pm central. I'll draw two lucky winners and even pay to have the book shipped to you if you are not local.
If you are too impatient to wait for the drawing, you can always purchase the book here. Good luck and enter NOW!
5.25.2009
Happy Memorial Day!
I've been up for several hours and still am the only one out of bed. What a great way to start a holiday!
Oddly enough today holds a different meaning for me entirely than the years past (was that even a coherent sentence?). Before Memorial Day was just a free day off work and time to spend with friends cooking out or what have you. Today, I find myself thinking of Chase, wondering what he is doing and then my thoughts move to all the other service men and women who are serving or have served our country. For my own and for all of those out there, I thank you.
Digressing just a bit, I think I want to go buy a flag and fly it at the house. You don't see that much anymore, but I am feeling more patriotic these days, so that might just be an investment worth making this year.
Digressing even further, several of you have mentioned wanting Chase's address to send him a word of thanks and/or encouragement. I am humbled by your thoughtfulness because selfish as I am, that thought would never have crossed my mind before. Oh the ways that life changes us! Anyway, we don't know what his address is yet, but when we do, I will pass it along on my blog and anyone that wishes can send him a note or card. I can imagine that he will appreciate it more than we'll ever know.
So, what does today hold for the Taylors? Well, as soon as the family is up moving around, we are going to visit my dad. There's really not been much change, but we did make it over Friday night to visit. He was definitely not aware of our presence the entire time we were there. Jenna was at an end-of-school function (no parents allowed!), so it was just Steve and I. We just sat in the room with him and I rubbed his head. I tried to get him to wake up several times, but he just couldn't. I doubt he even knew I was there. We'll go back today to allow Jenna to at least see him again even though he might not realize she is there either.
After our visit, we are going to our 8th annual Memorial Day activity...my great nephew's birthday party! He was actually born on May 30th, but each Memorial Day we celebrate his birthday. Jenna will have fun playing with her cousin and I'll enjoy catching up with my family. And of course, it will be another opportunity to bust out the camera for a photo op! :)
After the party, we are headed home to grill some hamburgers and hotdogs. I went to the grocery store yesterday and even got a big watermelon. I have the perfect Memorial Day spread...hamburgers, hotdogs, chips, dip, corn on the cob (fresh) and watermelon! I might even make some iced tea! It does look like it's going to rain, but I hope it holds off long enough for us to celebrate tonight. I LOVE grilled hamburgers and hotdogs.
Anyway, I hear the shower running which means Steve's out of bed. I need to get my girl up and dressed since we'll be needing to leave in about an hour. I gotta get ME dressed too since I put my PJs back on when I got out of the shower this morning! And then there is that little matter of wrapping a gift for the birthday boy today!
Happy Memorial Day to you!!!! Enjoy!
Oddly enough today holds a different meaning for me entirely than the years past (was that even a coherent sentence?). Before Memorial Day was just a free day off work and time to spend with friends cooking out or what have you. Today, I find myself thinking of Chase, wondering what he is doing and then my thoughts move to all the other service men and women who are serving or have served our country. For my own and for all of those out there, I thank you.
Digressing just a bit, I think I want to go buy a flag and fly it at the house. You don't see that much anymore, but I am feeling more patriotic these days, so that might just be an investment worth making this year.
Digressing even further, several of you have mentioned wanting Chase's address to send him a word of thanks and/or encouragement. I am humbled by your thoughtfulness because selfish as I am, that thought would never have crossed my mind before. Oh the ways that life changes us! Anyway, we don't know what his address is yet, but when we do, I will pass it along on my blog and anyone that wishes can send him a note or card. I can imagine that he will appreciate it more than we'll ever know.
So, what does today hold for the Taylors? Well, as soon as the family is up moving around, we are going to visit my dad. There's really not been much change, but we did make it over Friday night to visit. He was definitely not aware of our presence the entire time we were there. Jenna was at an end-of-school function (no parents allowed!), so it was just Steve and I. We just sat in the room with him and I rubbed his head. I tried to get him to wake up several times, but he just couldn't. I doubt he even knew I was there. We'll go back today to allow Jenna to at least see him again even though he might not realize she is there either.
After our visit, we are going to our 8th annual Memorial Day activity...my great nephew's birthday party! He was actually born on May 30th, but each Memorial Day we celebrate his birthday. Jenna will have fun playing with her cousin and I'll enjoy catching up with my family. And of course, it will be another opportunity to bust out the camera for a photo op! :)
After the party, we are headed home to grill some hamburgers and hotdogs. I went to the grocery store yesterday and even got a big watermelon. I have the perfect Memorial Day spread...hamburgers, hotdogs, chips, dip, corn on the cob (fresh) and watermelon! I might even make some iced tea! It does look like it's going to rain, but I hope it holds off long enough for us to celebrate tonight. I LOVE grilled hamburgers and hotdogs.
Anyway, I hear the shower running which means Steve's out of bed. I need to get my girl up and dressed since we'll be needing to leave in about an hour. I gotta get ME dressed too since I put my PJs back on when I got out of the shower this morning! And then there is that little matter of wrapping a gift for the birthday boy today!
Happy Memorial Day to you!!!! Enjoy!
5.21.2009
Things You Need To Know
There are a lot of people that read this blog to keep up with the Taylors who I don't correspond with on a daily basis (which is the whole reason for this blog). So, there are a couple things I need to update on...
Chase arrived Parris Island, SC safely for Marine Boot Camp. He was able to make one phone call upon arrival, and it was totally scripted...and YELLED (think any military movie you've seen, "SIR YES SIR!"). He called his mother and since there was to be no exchange of words between them, she let it go to her answering machine so we all could hear. Basically, the call went something like this: "This is Recruit Taylor. I have arrived safely at Parris Island. Do not send food or bulk items to me. I will contact you by letter in 7-10 days with my mailing address. Thank you for your support." So. What we know is that he's there and (thanks to a friend at work whose son is going into the Marines in December) he is still going through processing until this weekend. He'll send one postcard with his address, most likely to his mom, and then we'll be able to write letters (and only letters) to him. If you are interested in sending him a card or letter, let me know and I'll forward his address to you (via email) as soon as I get it. I have heard they really appreciate letters and cards, so I intend to send him something about twice a week (one will be from Steve and I), but the other will be from Jenna.
Now, onto more somber news. As many of you know, my Dad has not been in good health for a while. He suffers from advanced stage COPD (pulmonary disease) and dementia. He spent a long weekend in the hospital over Mother's Day and even though he was discharged, he has not been well ever since. His dementia makes him paranoid and wild and it has gotten out of control. My dear stepmother (who has cared for him in ways you would never believe) finally broke down and called Hospice for help. Their first evaluation of Daddy came back with the result of "this appears to be the beginning of the end"...we haven't been given a time, but due to some signs he is exhibiting, it will most likely be sooner rather than later. In other words, most likely by the end of 2009 (and probably well before then), Jenna will have lost 2 grandparents in one year. A hospital bed has been brought in and he's getting morphine to keep him "comfortable"....these are both ominous signs that I've seen two times before when Hospice came in (once with my Mom and once with Steve's).
So, there you have it. I would have blogged this news earlier, but I wanted to be sure all my family knew so they weren't surprised when they read my blog. And for those who want to know how I am doing...I am surviving. Daddy is almost 82 and has been in poor health for some time. I have known this time would come, but I can assure you, that doesn't make it easy/easier or mean I'm ready. My only consolation is that I know my God has this all under control and I believe that my Dad will be able to see my mother again when he passes on from this life. That gives me great comfort. As much as I love my stepmom, I believe my mom and dad were soulmates. (just in case you are wondering, my stepmom's first husband died of cancer as well so I believe he was her soulmate...not to leave her out!). I appreciate your prayers for my family as we go through the next few months. I'll try to keep you posted.
That's about all....as if that's not enough!
BTW-for you AI fans...GO KRIS!!!! :)
Chase arrived Parris Island, SC safely for Marine Boot Camp. He was able to make one phone call upon arrival, and it was totally scripted...and YELLED (think any military movie you've seen, "SIR YES SIR!"). He called his mother and since there was to be no exchange of words between them, she let it go to her answering machine so we all could hear. Basically, the call went something like this: "This is Recruit Taylor. I have arrived safely at Parris Island. Do not send food or bulk items to me. I will contact you by letter in 7-10 days with my mailing address. Thank you for your support." So. What we know is that he's there and (thanks to a friend at work whose son is going into the Marines in December) he is still going through processing until this weekend. He'll send one postcard with his address, most likely to his mom, and then we'll be able to write letters (and only letters) to him. If you are interested in sending him a card or letter, let me know and I'll forward his address to you (via email) as soon as I get it. I have heard they really appreciate letters and cards, so I intend to send him something about twice a week (one will be from Steve and I), but the other will be from Jenna.
Now, onto more somber news. As many of you know, my Dad has not been in good health for a while. He suffers from advanced stage COPD (pulmonary disease) and dementia. He spent a long weekend in the hospital over Mother's Day and even though he was discharged, he has not been well ever since. His dementia makes him paranoid and wild and it has gotten out of control. My dear stepmother (who has cared for him in ways you would never believe) finally broke down and called Hospice for help. Their first evaluation of Daddy came back with the result of "this appears to be the beginning of the end"...we haven't been given a time, but due to some signs he is exhibiting, it will most likely be sooner rather than later. In other words, most likely by the end of 2009 (and probably well before then), Jenna will have lost 2 grandparents in one year. A hospital bed has been brought in and he's getting morphine to keep him "comfortable"....these are both ominous signs that I've seen two times before when Hospice came in (once with my Mom and once with Steve's).
So, there you have it. I would have blogged this news earlier, but I wanted to be sure all my family knew so they weren't surprised when they read my blog. And for those who want to know how I am doing...I am surviving. Daddy is almost 82 and has been in poor health for some time. I have known this time would come, but I can assure you, that doesn't make it easy/easier or mean I'm ready. My only consolation is that I know my God has this all under control and I believe that my Dad will be able to see my mother again when he passes on from this life. That gives me great comfort. As much as I love my stepmom, I believe my mom and dad were soulmates. (just in case you are wondering, my stepmom's first husband died of cancer as well so I believe he was her soulmate...not to leave her out!). I appreciate your prayers for my family as we go through the next few months. I'll try to keep you posted.
That's about all....as if that's not enough!
BTW-for you AI fans...GO KRIS!!!! :)
5.18.2009
He's arrived...
As I type this, Chase should be arriving in Parris Island, SC at boot camp. If you are reading this, please take just a moment and pray for him. He has confessed to me and Steve that he is nervous. He's a Believer, so I know he knows the power of prayer. Pray for God's peace to surround him right now and give him strength to get through these next few days (which will be some of the hardest he's ever had).
Friday night, we had his going away dinner. What a great group of friends and family. Such a nice time although it was hard getting any time with him since the other family and friends were there.
Sunday we spent an hour or so with him at the hotel where he was to stay overnight to get ready for processing today. I got a couple good pictures of us and I said goodbye for what I thought would be the last time (again).
He was supposed to get sworn in again today at 10:15am even though he'd already been sworn in once. I didn't intend to go to the processing center for this, but I couldn't sleep last night for thinking of Chase and the minute my eyes opened this morning, I knew I would go. We stayed with him for 2 hours while they processed and then re-processed his paperwork just to find out that he really doesn't have to be sworn in again. So, from there, I said goodbye for what really was the last time for a while.
He was able to text me off and on once they got on the road, which was about 2pm (instead of the 12 noon time they were supposed to leave). He admitted he was nervous and I told him I'd be praying for him. Steve and I both checked in with him periodically throughout the evening. After some time on my face in prayer (my Bible Study girls understand this), I texted him to see where they were. At the time they were about 90 minutes from arrival. I asked him how he was feeling and he said he was calming down! THE POWER OF PRAYER! I was not able to text him back because his phone was dying and he wanted enough bars to text us and his mom when they arrived. At 10:05 we got a text from a strange number...it was Chase saying they were 10 minutes out and his phone was dead, so his friend let him use his. He was almost there and he loved us and that he would write when he could. Dear heavens, my sweet little, blonde 6 year old boy is now being thrust into a world where he has never been. I just pray that God will give him strength to persevere. I know he can do this. He just has to believe in himself.
So, all that to say, please pray for Chase when you think of it. I know he will appreciate it and so would Steve and I.
Friday night, we had his going away dinner. What a great group of friends and family. Such a nice time although it was hard getting any time with him since the other family and friends were there.
Sunday we spent an hour or so with him at the hotel where he was to stay overnight to get ready for processing today. I got a couple good pictures of us and I said goodbye for what I thought would be the last time (again).
He was supposed to get sworn in again today at 10:15am even though he'd already been sworn in once. I didn't intend to go to the processing center for this, but I couldn't sleep last night for thinking of Chase and the minute my eyes opened this morning, I knew I would go. We stayed with him for 2 hours while they processed and then re-processed his paperwork just to find out that he really doesn't have to be sworn in again. So, from there, I said goodbye for what really was the last time for a while.He was able to text me off and on once they got on the road, which was about 2pm (instead of the 12 noon time they were supposed to leave). He admitted he was nervous and I told him I'd be praying for him. Steve and I both checked in with him periodically throughout the evening. After some time on my face in prayer (my Bible Study girls understand this), I texted him to see where they were. At the time they were about 90 minutes from arrival. I asked him how he was feeling and he said he was calming down! THE POWER OF PRAYER! I was not able to text him back because his phone was dying and he wanted enough bars to text us and his mom when they arrived. At 10:05 we got a text from a strange number...it was Chase saying they were 10 minutes out and his phone was dead, so his friend let him use his. He was almost there and he loved us and that he would write when he could. Dear heavens, my sweet little, blonde 6 year old boy is now being thrust into a world where he has never been. I just pray that God will give him strength to persevere. I know he can do this. He just has to believe in himself.
So, all that to say, please pray for Chase when you think of it. I know he will appreciate it and so would Steve and I.
5.11.2009
Into the Bible Wax Museum
On Thursday, Jenna has to participate in a Bible Wax Museum at school. She had to choose a Biblical character and then memorize 4 facts about her person. On Thursday, each 1st grade class will stand in a hallway at school and "strike a pose". The other classes will pass by and when someone touches Jenna, she will recite her memorized facts and the person will have to guess who she is.
Sooo...here she is...given her facts, can you guess who she is?
"My real name is Hadassah. I was raised by my cousin Mordecai. I was chosen by the king as the new Queen of Persia. I saved my people - the Jews - from being killed by a man named Haman. Who am I?"
And I thought you would enjoy knowing (for my crafty friends out there) that I made her outfit. Oh yes, I made it. Of course, "made" is relative. I went to Joanns tonight after work and bought three different kinds of fabric. The lady was very nice in helping me figure out how much I would need. I basically just draped the long purple piece over her and then cut a hole out for her head. Then I wrapped the light purple fabric around her waist like a belt and the gold over her head. The crown came in a crown-making kit and Jenna made that. And of course, I bought the "scepter" which will light up. I think she makes a perfect Queen. After all, doesn't a queen start out a princess??!!! :)
Sooo...here she is...given her facts, can you guess who she is?
"My real name is Hadassah. I was raised by my cousin Mordecai. I was chosen by the king as the new Queen of Persia. I saved my people - the Jews - from being killed by a man named Haman. Who am I?"
Meet Queen Esther.
And I thought you would enjoy knowing (for my crafty friends out there) that I made her outfit. Oh yes, I made it. Of course, "made" is relative. I went to Joanns tonight after work and bought three different kinds of fabric. The lady was very nice in helping me figure out how much I would need. I basically just draped the long purple piece over her and then cut a hole out for her head. Then I wrapped the light purple fabric around her waist like a belt and the gold over her head. The crown came in a crown-making kit and Jenna made that. And of course, I bought the "scepter" which will light up. I think she makes a perfect Queen. After all, doesn't a queen start out a princess??!!! :)
Winners of Enduring Justice!
I had my good friend at work, Nancy, help me in the drawing and the 2 winners of the book "Enduring Justice" are...
Teresa and Rachel!
YAY! I will arrange to get both of you the books ASAP. Thanks to everyone for entering. I am currently trying to get started on another book that I'll be giving away called "The Night Watchman".
Stay tuned...
Teresa and Rachel!
YAY! I will arrange to get both of you the books ASAP. Thanks to everyone for entering. I am currently trying to get started on another book that I'll be giving away called "The Night Watchman".
Stay tuned...
5.10.2009
My Mother's Day
I have had (so far) a very enjoyable Mother's Day. Last night Steve and I went to TPAC to see Happy Days. It was not the best show I've seen there, but it was pretty good. At least I really enjoyed the Happy Days theme song they kept singing!
Chase came over to spend the night with us last night and then went to church with us today. I'd love to say that he came just to spend time with me on Mother's Day, but I know better. I don't think he really realized it was going to be Mother's Day when he planned to come over. But since it's MY day, I'm going to believe he wanted to spend some time with me today. Either way, I truly enjoyed it. Knowing our time is short (he leaves in just ONE WEEK), made the time spent together even sweeter. Don't we look the handsome group?
This morning I got my gifts from Jenna (and Steve)...I have to say they always do a great job at picking stuff out and Jenna was giddy with excitement for me to open my first gift that she helped pick out. And what a sweet surprise!
Steve said the first pendant she picked up cost $6,000! I can assure you this one was WAYYYYY less! But I have to say, that's my girl! :)
But I'm partial to the homemade gifts and this was one of the best.
I don't know if you can read what Jenna wrote on her sheet, so here is what it says (exactly the way she wrote it).
"My Mom is special because...She raises me. She gets happy for very little thanks I do. And she knows me. And that's why I love her" (I think what she meant was that I get happy for THINGS she does.)
"I like it when my Mom...make dlishes lunch on Saturday. It is yumeee mmm sweet."
"My Mom can do many things! I think she's best at...being a mom. She was raised good. and that is what she good at. being a mom."
"My Mom has a pretty smile! I like to make her smile by...Laughing. when my dad tikels me. And that's what makes her laugh."
"My Mom is pretty as a...swan. She swa's in the air." (not sure about me swaying in the air, but um, OK...didn't the pretty swan start out as an ugly duckling???)
"My Mom is smart! She even knows...me. She know's me so well."
And from church, she brought me a mini flower pot with a marigold (which I hope will bloom soon).
We had lunch with Steve's family in honor of his mother who we continue to miss like crazy. And then we visited the cemetery (both my mom and his). Finally we rounded out our day with a visit with Bertie who was at the hospital with my Dad. Daddy went in the hospital on Thursday because he was having a difficult mental time. Turns out he had a bladder infection which they are treating with antibiotics and giving him a little extra breathing treatments. Right now, he is functioning at 20% lung capacity. That's not good, but it's not as low as we expected. Not sure when (or if) he will come home. Every time he has to go into the hospital, we are faced with the choice of whether to bring him home or to an assisted living facility. It's a tough decision to make and it has not gotten any easier.
But overall, my day was good. Always bittersweet with the loss of Mary still so fresh and the ever present loss of my own mother so many years ago now. But it still was a good day.
And if you are waiting on the drawing for Enduring Justice...I'm going to post that first thing in the morning...today is reserved for Mother's day! :)
Chase came over to spend the night with us last night and then went to church with us today. I'd love to say that he came just to spend time with me on Mother's Day, but I know better. I don't think he really realized it was going to be Mother's Day when he planned to come over. But since it's MY day, I'm going to believe he wanted to spend some time with me today. Either way, I truly enjoyed it. Knowing our time is short (he leaves in just ONE WEEK), made the time spent together even sweeter. Don't we look the handsome group?
This morning I got my gifts from Jenna (and Steve)...I have to say they always do a great job at picking stuff out and Jenna was giddy with excitement for me to open my first gift that she helped pick out. And what a sweet surprise!
Steve said the first pendant she picked up cost $6,000! I can assure you this one was WAYYYYY less! But I have to say, that's my girl! :)But I'm partial to the homemade gifts and this was one of the best.
I don't know if you can read what Jenna wrote on her sheet, so here is what it says (exactly the way she wrote it).
"My Mom is special because...She raises me. She gets happy for very little thanks I do. And she knows me. And that's why I love her" (I think what she meant was that I get happy for THINGS she does.)
"I like it when my Mom...make dlishes lunch on Saturday. It is yumeee mmm sweet."
"My Mom can do many things! I think she's best at...being a mom. She was raised good. and that is what she good at. being a mom."
"My Mom has a pretty smile! I like to make her smile by...Laughing. when my dad tikels me. And that's what makes her laugh."
"My Mom is pretty as a...swan. She swa's in the air." (not sure about me swaying in the air, but um, OK...didn't the pretty swan start out as an ugly duckling???)
"My Mom is smart! She even knows...me. She know's me so well."
And from church, she brought me a mini flower pot with a marigold (which I hope will bloom soon).
We had lunch with Steve's family in honor of his mother who we continue to miss like crazy. And then we visited the cemetery (both my mom and his). Finally we rounded out our day with a visit with Bertie who was at the hospital with my Dad. Daddy went in the hospital on Thursday because he was having a difficult mental time. Turns out he had a bladder infection which they are treating with antibiotics and giving him a little extra breathing treatments. Right now, he is functioning at 20% lung capacity. That's not good, but it's not as low as we expected. Not sure when (or if) he will come home. Every time he has to go into the hospital, we are faced with the choice of whether to bring him home or to an assisted living facility. It's a tough decision to make and it has not gotten any easier.
But overall, my day was good. Always bittersweet with the loss of Mary still so fresh and the ever present loss of my own mother so many years ago now. But it still was a good day.
And if you are waiting on the drawing for Enduring Justice...I'm going to post that first thing in the morning...today is reserved for Mother's day! :)
Happy Mother's Day
I just wanted to wish all the mom's and mothers-in-law out there a Happy Mother's Day. And to those that are "in-waiting" to be a mom...Happy Mother's Day to you too. Your time will come somehow, someway. I was once one of those women who wondered if that dream would ever come true, but it did and it was well worth the wait.
And for those of you who have lost your Moms or Mothers-in-Law (I have lost both), I know too how you feel and know the bittersweet feelings this day brings...missing your own but realizing how blessed you are to be a Mom yourself.
But to all those others...the ones that work at home every day homeschooling their kids, the ones that work all day to come home and work some more and to the ones with kids IN school but use their time to volunteer there and other worthy projects, I salute you!
I hope this day is a good one for you all.
And for those of you who have lost your Moms or Mothers-in-Law (I have lost both), I know too how you feel and know the bittersweet feelings this day brings...missing your own but realizing how blessed you are to be a Mom yourself.
But to all those others...the ones that work at home every day homeschooling their kids, the ones that work all day to come home and work some more and to the ones with kids IN school but use their time to volunteer there and other worthy projects, I salute you!
I hope this day is a good one for you all.
5.06.2009
Book Review: "Enduring Justice"
I'm going to review this book today, but wanted to give you a few snippets of information first. Thanks for all of your comments and reassurances on Chase going into the Marine Reserves. You have no idea how your thoughts have calmed my nerves. I got a super nice email from an old friend of mine (hi Bill!) who was in the USMC for 10 years. And that email absolutely put my mind at ease. You just never know where God will bring an encouraging word. Now, the new information on this is that Chase's departure date has been moved to May 18. If you are quick, you will realize that's in less than 2 weeks. It was quite a shock for us and I think Chase too, but he is getting ready.
Now I want to quickly share with you something ultra-sweet Steve did for me today. If you are in the middle Tennessee area, you probably know it has rained for what seems like 2 weeks straight. Somewhere in the midst of this, Steve lost one of our good umbrellas (or misplaced it). This past Sunday, we took the umbrella from my van to use at church. This morning, after Steve had already left, I realized that I had NO umbrella and there was none that I could find lying around the house. I had to drop JG off at school, run to work and get a notebook and then go to an off-site meeting. All that in and out, I had NO umbrella and it was pouring down rain. I called Steve mostly to complain about the fact that he had the umbrella and I didn't. He offered to pull off the road and meet me somewhere, but I really wanted to just complain about it. (Just confessing my heart here!) Anyway, as I pulled into school to drop JG off, I noticed a suspiciously familiar truck parked in the drive. It was Steve, waiting on me to give me back my umbrella! Now...is that not the sweetest thing you have ever heard!?!? Uh-huh. Me too. I just had to share. I dare you to top that!
OK, onto the book review....
"Enduring Justice" is the first fiction book I've reviewed here. But I really am more of a fiction reader, so I was looking forward to this one. It's written by an author I wasn't familiar with-Amy Wallace- but I can tell you, I'll be reading more of her stuff. The book is full of story-lines and such an easy read. The chapters are short which means you can read a lot in one sitting and it feels like you are making progress. I literally started reading this book on Friday night and finished last night. And there were parts where I literally sobbed because I totally related to the characters in the book. It's one that you don't want to miss. Here's a little about "Enduring Justice"...
"In Enduring Justice, Hanna Kessler’s childhood secret has remained buried for over two decades. But when the dark shadows of her past threaten to destroy those she loves, Hanna must face the summer that changed her life and the man who still haunts her thoughts.
Crimes Against Children FBI Agent, Michael Parker knows what it means to get knocked down. And when the system fails and a white supremacist is set free, Michael’s drive for retribution eclipses all else.
A racist’s well-planned assault forces Hanna and Michael to decide between executing vengeance and pursuing justice. When the attack turns personal, is healing still possible?
This thought-provoking novel deals with healing from sexual abuse, the balance of justice and mercy, and maintaining mixed-race friendships in the midst of racial tension. Readers who enjoy investigative thrillers by Dee Henderson, Colleen Coble, and Catherine Coulter, and who watch crime dramas like Law & Order: SVU, Criminal Minds, and Without a Trace will love this book—and the entire series."
And by the way, here's my plug for Dee Henderson if you haven't read her....absolutely fabulous especially her O'Malley series. Probably why I liked Amy Wallace's writing!
So if you want to read this book, I have 2 to give away for free. As always, leave me a comment on this post or email me directly at sandras_junk@charter.net and let me know you want to be entered into the drawing. I'll draw Sunday, May 10 and select a Mother's Day winner! If you live out of town, you are still eligible...I'll ship the book to you if you win at MY COST. And to those lurkers who don't know me personally but have linked to me through other blogs, you can enter too! All are welcome!
Now I want to quickly share with you something ultra-sweet Steve did for me today. If you are in the middle Tennessee area, you probably know it has rained for what seems like 2 weeks straight. Somewhere in the midst of this, Steve lost one of our good umbrellas (or misplaced it). This past Sunday, we took the umbrella from my van to use at church. This morning, after Steve had already left, I realized that I had NO umbrella and there was none that I could find lying around the house. I had to drop JG off at school, run to work and get a notebook and then go to an off-site meeting. All that in and out, I had NO umbrella and it was pouring down rain. I called Steve mostly to complain about the fact that he had the umbrella and I didn't. He offered to pull off the road and meet me somewhere, but I really wanted to just complain about it. (Just confessing my heart here!) Anyway, as I pulled into school to drop JG off, I noticed a suspiciously familiar truck parked in the drive. It was Steve, waiting on me to give me back my umbrella! Now...is that not the sweetest thing you have ever heard!?!? Uh-huh. Me too. I just had to share. I dare you to top that!
OK, onto the book review....
"Enduring Justice" is the first fiction book I've reviewed here. But I really am more of a fiction reader, so I was looking forward to this one. It's written by an author I wasn't familiar with-Amy Wallace- but I can tell you, I'll be reading more of her stuff. The book is full of story-lines and such an easy read. The chapters are short which means you can read a lot in one sitting and it feels like you are making progress. I literally started reading this book on Friday night and finished last night. And there were parts where I literally sobbed because I totally related to the characters in the book. It's one that you don't want to miss. Here's a little about "Enduring Justice"...
"In Enduring Justice, Hanna Kessler’s childhood secret has remained buried for over two decades. But when the dark shadows of her past threaten to destroy those she loves, Hanna must face the summer that changed her life and the man who still haunts her thoughts.
Crimes Against Children FBI Agent, Michael Parker knows what it means to get knocked down. And when the system fails and a white supremacist is set free, Michael’s drive for retribution eclipses all else.
A racist’s well-planned assault forces Hanna and Michael to decide between executing vengeance and pursuing justice. When the attack turns personal, is healing still possible?
This thought-provoking novel deals with healing from sexual abuse, the balance of justice and mercy, and maintaining mixed-race friendships in the midst of racial tension. Readers who enjoy investigative thrillers by Dee Henderson, Colleen Coble, and Catherine Coulter, and who watch crime dramas like Law & Order: SVU, Criminal Minds, and Without a Trace will love this book—and the entire series."
And by the way, here's my plug for Dee Henderson if you haven't read her....absolutely fabulous especially her O'Malley series. Probably why I liked Amy Wallace's writing!
So if you want to read this book, I have 2 to give away for free. As always, leave me a comment on this post or email me directly at sandras_junk@charter.net and let me know you want to be entered into the drawing. I'll draw Sunday, May 10 and select a Mother's Day winner! If you live out of town, you are still eligible...I'll ship the book to you if you win at MY COST. And to those lurkers who don't know me personally but have linked to me through other blogs, you can enter too! All are welcome!
5.04.2009
Winners of "Ten Dumb Things"...
Sorry this blog is SO late...life tends to get in the way sometimes and I just didn't get around to drawing a winner until this morning!
The winners of "Ten Dumb Things Christians Believe" are...
Deanne Sanders and Leigh Ann Swords!
Thanks to all of you that entered. Deanne and Leigh Ann (love how that rhymes!), I will get you your books soon. LA-on Tuesday...DD probably at Chase's dinner.
And if you entered and didn't win, don't worry...I'm due for another blog review THIS WEEK for a FICTION book called "Enduring Justice." So stay tuned for another chance to win!
The winners of "Ten Dumb Things Christians Believe" are...
Deanne Sanders and Leigh Ann Swords!
Thanks to all of you that entered. Deanne and Leigh Ann (love how that rhymes!), I will get you your books soon. LA-on Tuesday...DD probably at Chase's dinner.
And if you entered and didn't win, don't worry...I'm due for another blog review THIS WEEK for a FICTION book called "Enduring Justice." So stay tuned for another chance to win!
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