Important update

OK, I am ready to give you all an update regarding what's been going on with us the past few months. As some of you may know, over a year ago, we went through 4 in-vitro cycles in an effort to get a sibling for Jenna. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, those cycles were not successful. At the end, we were both ready to get off the emotional rollercoaster. My body was seeing the effects of the daily shots and my emotions were shot. Since that time, we focused on our family, what we did have and decided what, if anything, we would do. Around...maybe March of last year, we ended up with the name of a surgeon in Arkansas who is a Christian and did vasectomy reversals as part of his "ministry"...meaning, it was done in his office for a very reduced rate. We did a little research and decided to wait until some friends of ours at church went through the procedure themselves. They did and felt that he was very nice and capable. He prayed with them before the surgery etc. and so we made the appointment for July. Well, believe it or not I was the one who got cold feet. I canceled the appointment citing the fact that 3 weeks post-surgery would be our big Disney vacation and I didn't want anything to interfere with that. Then, 3 months later, we found out our friends from church were expecting. So, I made the appointment for September.

September, we went up to Arkansas for a weekend, had the surgery, which to Steve's surprise wasn't as bad as imagined, and came home to wait. They were only successful in reconnecting one side, but the other side was easily reconnected. They told us to "try" for 3 months and if not successful to go in for an analysis which would tell us if the surgery was indeed successful.

Well, we just had that analysis done and the results are in. While technically, the results would indicate a successful surgery, there's not going to be enough there to result in a pregnancy (outside a miracle). I share this with you so that you all know and understand what we've been through. Also, it will help you understand why Jenna will not have any full siblings. We have tried and prayed and cried and this is the hand we've been dealt. I know that if it is in God's will for us to have another child, He can turn those low numbers into a miracle. I am not going on any type of birth control, however, I am not counting days or doing anything to promote conception.

To each of you, I thank you for your support, prayers and friendship with all we've been through. We are not surprised by this news and while it's not exactly what we'd hoped for, we know that God knows what is best for us more than we do and we have to have faith in Him.

I just wanted to share with you and thank you for everything. Other than that, life here is good. There is lots going on and I'll try to update you in the next few days on that. Stay tuned...