3.29.2007

We're moving on...

...to pre-1st that is!

Today was our spring parent/teacher conference with Jenna's teacher and as we suspected, she has recommended that Jenna move to pre-1st grade instead of 1st. For those of you who aren't familiar with pre-1st, it is the 1/2 step between Kindergarten and 1st grade. Used to, when you weren't ready to move on to 1st grade, you were held back in Kindergarten for a second year. Or, you might have been pushed on to 1st grade and then struggled up until about 5-6th grade and THEN been held back. Pre-1st is just that extra year before they move on to 1st. As it is, 1st grade NOW, is alot different than 1st grade when I was in school. There's homework, lots of independent work, etc. Ms. Collins, our teacher, feels that Jenna would benefit more in the future if she did pre-1st.

I will admit, I was a little disappointed, because of course, I wanted to believe that her age wasn't a factor and that she was just a little genious. The teacher took care to assure us that she is right on track for her age, but being the 2nd youngest in the class that she was afraid 1st grade would be a real struggle. So, I will not allow my unfounded apprehensions to have her struggle for the next 12 years of school. I am excited to get to know more about the pre-1st curriculum and the teacher at DLES. We'll know more in the next month or so as they gather all the other pre-1st parents.

In other Taylor news, Steve is still contemplating going to Moldova. The deposit money is due on April 1, so he only has a few more days to make the decision. Honestly, if he goes, I have no idea how we'll get enough money to do that too, but I know if it's the right thing, the Lord will provide.

Well, that's about all that's new with us. Stay tuned...

3.26.2007

Gage's first doctor visit...



Micah took Gage to his first doctor's appointment today. He now weighs 7lb 2oz which is 2 oz up from what he was when he left the hospital on Friday and 4 oz from the time he was born. This is great news because it means he's getting plenty of milk from Micah which all new moms are worried about! He is 19 inches long, which is 1/2 inch shorter than at birth, but the pediatrician said that many times, the head is swollen at birth from being in the birth canal and it will go back to normal size and it appears they shrink. So, perfect on all accounts there.

He was a tiny bit jaundiced at birth and he remains a little yellow, but the doctor said there was nothing at all to worry about that it would go away with time. Something else to put Micah's mind at ease. No shots today. First ones are in two months and Micah is already dreading it.

Steve, Jenna and I went to spend time with her and Gage yesterday afternoon when we got back from Chattanooga and it was wonderful. Jenna doesn't quite know what to think of him yet. Not sure she knew what to expect. She kept saying at first she was a big sister instead of an aunt and when we got her acclimated to "aunt", she wanted to be an "aunt Rachel", not "aunt Jenna"...so....who knows what she'll come out as. :)

While we were there, I checked Micah's stitches and for the degree of damage, she's healing quite nicely. Her milk is in and Gage is nursing like a champ. You have no idea how proud I am of Micah for making it this far, because nursing is so hard and being her first and everything...she's really doing well. Of course, he's going 3 hours between feedings and the doctor said as long as it doesn't exceed 6 hours at a time and he's still gaining, she's good. She hasn't even broken out the bottles yet! SO PROUD of my girl! He's sweet as pie and I can't wait to see him grow...more on him as time progresses...

As for us, we had a blast in "Chagganooga" as Jenna calls it. However, about 20 miles west on our way home yesterday morning, Steve's truck died. Luckily, I was following in the van, but we had to have the darn thing towed back to the dealership on a Sunday which cost us nearly $500. The bad part was that Steve KNEW something was wrong and had taken it in for a "checkup" last weekend. The dealership said they couldn't find anything wrong with it and the hesitation Steve was feeling was just due to "change in climate". WHAT?!?! Anyway, we had to rent a car so we can get where we need to go and that's another $250 a week. Hopefully we won't need it that long, but you never know. At the moment, we are arguing with Ford over the repairs. I'll keep you posted.

That's about it right now. I got my passport for Thailand today which is AWESOME! I'm starting to make a list of things I need to pick up for the trip. June will be upon me before I know it. Steve's unsure if he's going to Moldova or not especially if we end up paying an arm and leg for the truck repairs. I have no idea about vacation to the beach etc. It's just a wait and see game. I've gotten several more donations for Thailand and to those folks, THANK YOU! I am watching the total get lower and lower and I'm praying that by June it will be gone and I will have little or nothing to pay. More to come on that...

Thanks for all the well wishes for us new grandparents...we are Mimi and ???? Not sure about Steve yet, so if you have ideas...

3.24.2007

More updates on the baby...

Talked to Micah today and she and Gage spent the night at her mom's last night. She woke up and fed Gage at 1 or 2:00am I think she said. He went back to bed about an hour later and slept until 8:30 when Pam woke her up and she woke him up. Obviously, her milk hasn't come in yet or else she wouldn't be able to sleep that long. But she took advantage of it while she could.

She said that he really hasn't cried much...just grunts and groans. She seems to be doing well with him and says she has hardly gotten to hold him herself between Steven and her mom. But she'll be at home next week while Steven works so she'll have him all to herself and thus embark on the journey of her life.

Gage weighed 6lbs 14oz when they left the hospital so that was really good. He has a doctor's appointment on Monday with him, so we'll see if he's gained his birth weight back by then. I gave her some tips on bathing and feeding him and she sounds like she's been doing it forever. All of a sudden, I'm looking at a grown woman/mother where "Micah" had been. Micah will always be that 10 year old little girl in my eyes, but now I'm forced to see her as the grown woman she is. It's a little disconcerting, but I am so, so proud. I am anxious to see Gage grow, watch his personality emerge and start a relationship with him.

As I write this, we are in the hotel room in Chattanooga resting before dinner. We are going to stay in the hotel and eat tonight so that we can get in bed early so we can get up early and get home. We'll stop by Micah's to spend some quality time with her and Gage. She says she'll stay at her apartment tonight and then go back to her mom's tomorrow during the day. Jenna is really wanting to see the baby and I can't wait to get some good pictures of her and Steve with the baby. I'll post them here as soon as I can.

Well, more tomorrow, hopefully, if I can get the pictures downloaded.

3.22.2007

Baby update-day 1

So far, so good...Micah is doing well today. She slept much better last night than the night before. They gave her a pain pill by mouth to take the edge off the pain because she didn't want anything through the IV to make her sleepy. That worked and she kept him in the room until about 1am and then went to bed. They brought him back early this morning and she nursed him (or tried, she said he was zonked) and so she had a pretty good night. She had ordered chicken tenders for lunch and a cheeseburger for dinner, so it's good that she was eating.

Barring any unforeseen complications, she'll be discharged tomorrow and I think she's going to stay at her mom's house this weekend.

I'm posting this from Chattanooga where Jenna and I started our trip just a day later than expected. I have really been pushed and pulled from many directions the past few weeks, so I needed this time away and with Jenna. Poor thing, she's really gotten the short straw with me lately. So, today was our day and then tomorrow Steve will join us and we'll spend the rest of the weekend together. We are hoping to head back on Sunday morning in enough time to visit with Micah and the baby. Today, Jenna and I went to Mellow Mushroom for lunch, walked around downtown Chattanooga and then swam in the indoor pool at the hotel. Now she is chomping at the bit to get dinner. I think we'll eat in the hotel restaraunt and then walk around outside to get some pictures...tomorrow when Steve arrives, we'll do the Aquarium, IMAX and then the Ducks tour (this is a land/river tour in one of those amphibious vehicles...cool!) So far, it's been just what the doctor ordered.

As for my dad, I convinced him yesterday to go to the doctor to see what was giving him such awful nights and the doc thought he had pneumonia (which is extremely dangerous for someone with COPD/emphysema), but luckily, the scans showed only bronchitis which should be easily fixed with antibiotics! PHEW!

Thanks for all your well wishes and blessing for me, Steve, Micah and the baby. We are very excited and I cannot wait to get home to see them both. I think Micah is starting to realize how very much we love her because it's how much she loves little Gage...only a mother can understand that love.

I do have wireless internet in the hotel (and free!), so I will post again...

Signing off as..... "MIMI" (the name Gage will call me)

3.21.2007

Welcome BABY GAGE!!!!







I am happy to report that Steven Gage Harwell made his arrival today, March 21, 2007 at 4:20pm weighing in at 7lbs even and 19 1/2 inches long!



Micah is doing very well considering. Last night she didn't get much sleep due to the contractions, so they gave her Stadol which helped, but since she was still a tight 1cm this morning, the doctor broke her water around 9am...by 11:30ish, she was hurting, but only at 3cm dilated, so they gave her the epidural and that really took the edge off and allowed her to sleep. They checked again about 1:00 and she was 5-6cm dilated and 80-90% effaced. At 2:30 the nurse checked again and she was fully dilated and effaced, so the pushing began. She was such a trooper, but was really getting tired toward the end. The OB had to cut her and then she tore in addition, so the repair for that was extremely painful and Micah was in a world of hurt. They actually had to stop the repairs and give her more Stadol for pain. That worked, but then she was really out of it for most of her visitors and the baby's first several hours of life.

I left the hospital at 9pm and she'd had her epidural, IV, blood pressure cuff, finger pulse, and catheter removed. She'd taken some pain medicine by mouth, drank about 4 Sprites and had several bites of crackers, red jello and peaches. She even got up to go to the restroom, so she is really doing very well.

The baby is of course, the most beautiful child in the world (right after my Jenna!). He's a good baby so far (but aren't they all in the hospital?!) They are thinking, barring any complications, they'll be able to go home on Friday. Jenna and I are heading out to Chattanooga tomorrow and Steve will join us on Friday morning. We'll be back on Sunday afternoon in time to visit with Micah. If you wonder why you don't see any pictures of Jenna with the baby, it's because they absolutely would NOT let her even on the floor. Steve had to stay with her most of the time because I was with Micah the entire labor. I made it to her right as she was getting the epidural and stayed until tonight. It was just me, her mother and her boyfriend during the labor and delivery and MAN! What a miracle to watch! I've never been able to be part of a birth before and it was unbelievably cool! God is awesome to have created this process! I will always be glad that Micah allowed me to be part of it. And to find myself and Pam coming together despite our differences for the love and support of Micah was another little miracle in and of itself. I could go on and on. And right now, I'm ultimately exhausted, so rather than babble on, I'll attach a few pictures and hit the sack.

The picture of me and Gage is an awful one of me and you can't really see Gage, but you get the point. I took the picture of Micah and Gage right as I left the hospital this evening and then the one of the men are three DIFFERENT generations...baby Gage, then daddy Steven, then the grandads...Steven's dad, Micah's dad, Steve (mine) and then Micah's stepdad, Barry (Pam's husband). I thought that was really an awesome picture. ENJOY!

No baby yet...

I made it through the night and no baby yet. I talked with Micah's mom (Pam) this morning and she said that the night was rough in that they didn't get a lot of sleep. Micah is still having contractions and was given Stadol to take the edge off of the pain. Of course, she is starving because she hasn't had anything to eat in a while. The nurse came and checked her at 4am and she is still only dilated to 1cm and not moving, so it is going to be a long labor I fear. And going this slow, I don't know that they'd give her an epidural for a while. Her OB had a c-section this morning at 7:30, so she was going to come by after that and decide what to do. I'm starting to wonder if they won't break her water and try to get things moving along.

Anyway, I'm off to finish up some things around here, try to find someone to keep Jenna and then off to the hospital to spend most of the day I'd assume. I'll update you when I can.

3.20.2007

We're havin' a BABY!!!!

Yes, it's true...we're havin' a baby!!!

Micah went for her weekly checkup today and her blood pressure was a little high. The OB sent her to the hospital for some blood work mostly to ensure her liver enzymes were OK. The high blood pressure can be a sign of impending toxemia. I had PIH (pregnancy induced hypertension) when I was pregnant with Jenna, and they induced me two weeks early because of it, although I had the swelling to match. The bloodwork came back and showed everything was fine. She had little to no swelling, but the higher than normal blood pressure was enough for them to decide to keep her and go ahead and induce. She's about 38 1/2 weeks right now, so the best course of action is to induce.

Originally, she was hooked up and found to be having contractions 2 minutes apart, but after a while, they decided those were probably a result of her being a tad bit dehydrated from the vomiting she's had due to the extreme reflux. So, they were going to do the progestin (sp?) gel to soften her cervix, but then couldn't because policy states if you are contracting, they can't give you anything like that. I don't really understand the policy, but it is what it is. So, they upped her IV fluids (yes, the IV was certainly an adventure!) to see if that would cure the dehydration causing the contractions so they could apply the gel. However, the fluid didn't do that, so the doctor on call ordered pitocin at a very low level. Micah is only dilated to 1cm and probably just 50% effaced still, so we have a long way to go. They started the pitocin at 1 (which is where they started mine) and they anticipate not having a delivery until tomorrow afternoon or tomorrow evening. I don't think they'll let her go past tomorrow night.

Anyway, this does put a slight kink in plans for our trip to Chattanooga, which Jenna doesn't really understand, but if Micah does delivery tomorrow afternoon or evening, I will still head on up to Chattanooga after the birth because she'll be discharged on Friday and will have plenty of help from her mother and her side of the family at this point.

I'll keep you posted as I can. I just got home and it's almost 11pm, so I'm going to grab some soup (which is ready by the way) and then get some zzzzzzz's. I will post just as soon as I can tomorrow to let you know the update. I'm taking my laptop to the hospital, but not sure if they've got a wireless connection. We'll see....maybe I can find a hook up somewhere.

More later...

3.19.2007

News from "the Hill"

Why does it seem that some days I have absolutely nothing to write about and others I have more news than I have space?

Steve has decided to go to Moldova in July on a mission trip with Brentwood Baptist. He's already asked off at work and we have it on the calendar! YAY! Of course, this brings up the idea that I'm going to be a "single mom" for that entire week which has never happened before. I'm always the one traveling and he's always the one left at home to hold down the fort. I'm sure if I thought about it enough, I might get a little bit panicky...but he's going with David Millsap, the husband of lifetime friend Rachel Millsap (formerly Morgan for those of you that go WAY back with me) and so I feel a little better since David's been on a trip before. Plus, their family lives near us now so Rachel and I are already planning a slumber party for the girls (big and little!) for one or two of the nights we'll spend alone. Anyway, I'm sure you'll be hearing much more about that in the coming months.

We most likely will not be traveling to the beach in Jacksonville in August because of Steve's lack of vacation time, however, I'm contemplating taking Jenna down to Gulf Shores, AL for a few days, then traveling back up and visiting with my friend Kylene who is moving to Huntsville in a few weeks. Of course, I'll take the opportunity to visit with my friend Cathy W. while I'm there. We're hoping if this pans out that Steve can again join us that Thursday or Friday for a few days at a water park and maybe visiting the space center...not to mention, I'll be able to see Kylene's new addition again! (Baby Shelby is due April 20th)

Another piece of good news is that Chase had an interview for a medical records tech position at the Frist Clinic in Nashville today. It's an entry level position, but it does get his foot in the door at a clinic affiliated with a healthcare facility since he's wanting to go to school in the fall to be a radiology tech. This assumes he even gets the job. I've pulled as many strings as I can, so the rest is up to the Lord!

This coming Wednesday morning, I'm leaving to take Jenna to Chattanooga. I took off Wednesday, Thursday and Friday for her spring break and thought there is no way we'll be able to spend the entire week/end here without getting bored out of our minds, so I decided to take those days off and head there. Steve can't take off that much, so he's going to come up Friday morning. The hotel has a indoor pool which we can do on Wednesday afternoon when we arrive, then we'll try to do the Aquarium and Railroad museum after Steve gets there, but then we have Ruby Falls, Rock City, The Discovery Museum and the Imax until then. I'm really looking forward to the time away with Jenna. I've had lots and lots on my mind lately and I'm needing some time away not to mention some Mommy and me time with my baby girl.

Micah is doing the same. Her next appointment is tomorrow. She's really been struggling with reflux mostly at night, but it's not just normal reflux. It's making her sick to her stomach in more ways than one. She is only able to eat chicken noodle soup and the doctor thinks she might be having some gall bladder trouble. They are going to do an ultrasound on it tomorrow when she goes in. My guess is that absent an immediate danger, they will go ahead and set an induction date for the following week if she hasn't gone on her own by then. (she's due 3/31) She is miserable enough that I wouldn't be surprised if we had to stay close to home this week because of a baby! We'll see and I'll post as soon as I can.

For those of you that have been asking about my Dad, please keep on praying. The latest doctor's visit revealed he has only 22% lung capacity. Should pneumonia strike, it could be very dangerous for him. Needless to say, he's not taking the news too well. They made the mistake of telling him that he is eligible for hospice care now. Of course, he relates this to ALIVE hospice which are the wonderful people who come and care for the terminally ill in their last weeks/months etc. This is a different service for him because obviously, he's not that close to death, but I'm sure that's exactly what it sounded like to him. And having to be dependent on anyone is really a blow to your independence. Anyway, just remember him and of course all of us who have to care for him in some form or fashion.

Steve has an x-ray on his knee later this week...been having some knee pain he's just telling me about and they are thinking it might be a nerve problem.

I've received several checks for my Thailand trip and to each of you generous donors, THANK YOU! I've turned them all in to the church and they are being applied to my account. For those of you that have sent money directly to the church, they'll give me an updated account balance in the next few weeks. I'm really getting excited. Closer to the time of my departure, I'll begin to do a countdown. And then I'll blog and update those 10 prayer partners (you know who you are!) via email!

OK, well, that's enough...we'll keep you posted. I'll try to update everyone tomorrow after I hear from Micah. After that, it'll probably be quiet until we get back from Chattanooga Sunday (unless we are called home earlier!)

3.16.2007

Welcome BUTTON!

A Proper Introduction...

Sherri stopped by just now to tell me that Mr. No Name kitty has a name... BUTTON! He's cute as a button and he also has a little white spot on the underside of his neck which reminds some of a button...so I wanted to give a proper introduction to the new member of the family...Button Henry! We can't wait to meet him!

A loss & new addition

A LOSS

I'm very sad to report that while his owner was out of town on vacation, Bluebell Henry 'BLUE', escaped the confines of his home and was tragically caught in traffic. His owner, Sherri, was able to find enough to identify her beloved pet. Blue wasn't very old and was a sweet, loving cat. We were able to help him when he was still a kitten recently rescued from the shelter. Micah took him to her vet clinic at the time and was able to get him on the road to recovery, so as you can see, we had ties to this sweet cat and he will be missed very, very much by not just us, but Sherri as well. Please remember Sherri as she works through the loss of her furbaby.

A NEW ADDITION

Despite the loss, Sherri was able to give another unfortunate kitty a home this week. A beautiful black cat, who has yet to be named, now takes up residence in both Sherri's home and her heart. Right now, a transition continues with incumbent cat Buttercup Henry, but we are certain that "No Name" will find his place in her home too. I'll update you on the name as soon as I find out.

Updates...

Not much going on this week. I thought I would post earlier in the week, but you all know how the week gets away from you and then it's two weeks and you realize you haven't posted in a while! So, we'll get right to it...

Micah had her doctor's appointment on Wednesday afternoon and it was a huge disappointment to her, I'm sure. NO CHANGE. Still 1 cm dilated, she is 50% effaced and the baby is in position. She gained no weight, BP was unchanged (and normal) and no protein. Baby's heartbeat was about the same as last week too...so literally NO CHANGE! I think she was disappointed because everyone got all excited when they found out she'd already begun to dilate. Now I remember that anticipation and disappointment. They did tell her that they'd induce a week past her due date if she didn't deliver by then. She also asked about not being able to eat and they told her that the baby was just getting to the size where he was squishing all her organs (including her stomach) so when she eats, she takes two or three bites and feels full. They told her to try and graze all day long instead. She's really struggling right now with reflux, so they are trying to get that under control to make her as comfortable as possible through the next few weeks. Thanks to my good friend Danette Morgan for her tips last night. Micah was THRILLED to get some relief!!!

As for my Thailand trip, I've received two more donations bringing my total to three...one from one of my good high school buds and the other from a co-worker (who was extremely generous). I've had a handful of others commit verbally, but I haven't gotten anything yet and if they sent it on to the church, I won't know until I ask for a balance. However, the coolest thing is that an "anonymous donor" donated $200 through the church!!!! WOW!!! I happen to know who that donor was, but since they did want to remain "ANONYMOUS", I'll just say a big THANK YOU here...I know they are checking my blog...LOVE YOU ALL!!!

To put a rather interesting spin on things, Steve is thinking of going on his "own" mission trip to Moldova in July! Moldova is in Eastern Europe between the Ukraine and Romania. If he goes, he'll go to help with a mission called Sweet Sleep started by one of our own members at BBC. They go all over the area building new beds for orphanages. Our good friend David Millsap is going and has invited and encouraged Steve to go...so, we'll see. We might be jugglingg our beach vacation plans a little due to Steve not having much time off, but we will see what comes of it. For all of you prayer warriors out there, I encourage you to pray for Steve as he makes this decision.

As for everything else, mostly it's status quo. I just got over a sinus infection/cold/allergy attack and while my symptoms are all gone, my sinuses still hurt. I love Spring and Fall, but sure wish my allergies would behave! Everyone at work is or has been sick. And if they haven't been, they will be!

Also, one last prayer request...y'all pray for my Dad. Some of you know the issues there and some don't, but he's really not doing well at all. He'll be 80 in July and he's really struggling right now with a myriad of issues. I'd appreciate it if you remember him and my dear, dear stepmother, Bertie. As you can imagine, watching someone you love go through this struggle isn't easy and she has become for all intents and purposes, his primary caregiver which is truly a thankless job.

Well, I'll post more when I know more. Until then....TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!

3.07.2007

So much exciting news!!!!

There's several exciting things going on right now, so I'll do my best to hit them all...

Micah and baby Gage
Micah just called from her doctor's appointment and said all went well. She has really been sick this past week and 1/2 with a stomach bug of some kind, but is finally on the mend. The doctor said she was already 1 centimeter dilated and the baby was head down and she could feel the head!!! We are almost there!!! Micah said she thinks she's already lost her mucus plug and has had some "period like" cramps. I think we are on our way! She goes back next week and I told her to ask what station she's at and how effaced she is. I also suggested she get on to the hospital and pre-register as well as making sure her cell phone is always fully charged and her bag is packed. I'll keep you posted.

Speaking of babies...Avery Marie Burgess have arrived
Avery Marie is the new baby daughter of my best friend from high school, Amy Smotherman (who is now Burgess)...she was born weighing a hefty 8lbs 7oz. and was 20 inches long. Welcome to the world Avery Marie and congratulations Amy and Mark!!

Thailand update!
Today marks the very first donation I received for my Thailand trip! The donation came from good friend Laura Whitworth who used to work here at HCA. I've had several others acknowledge receipt of my support letter, but this is my first actual donation! SO EXCITING! I can't wait to see how God will provide. On the mission matter, keep Steve in your prayers...he's going to an informational meeting this Sunday regarding a mission trip to Moldova. We'll see how God works in that respect.

Finally, I'm so proud!!!
Here's a story about my dear, sweet Jenna Grace that happened this weekend while I was on a scrapbooking retreat...my little girl is growing up!

As most of you probably know, Steve is diabetic. He was diagnosed at age 8 (juvenile diabetes) and ever since, he's kept it very well under control. He struggles (oddly enough) with LOW blood sugar more often than high blood sugar. Ever so often, he'll have what you might hear referred to as "insulin shock/reaction" where his blood sugar bottoms out. When this happens, he becomes sweaty, spastic (almost like a mini-seizure) and generally unresponsive (this is hard to describe unless you've seen it happen). Anyway, Jenna has been around many times when it's happened and she knows that usually I get him a Coke and a sugar tablet which I have to feed to him because he's not typically in control at this point.

Apparently, Friday afternoon, Steve went into insulin shock (with little warning) at the house. Knowing that she wasn't strong enough to open a Coke for Daddy, Jenna went next door to the neighbor's house, knocked on her door and rang the doorbell until "Ms. Amy" came to the door. She told her that her Daddy was sick and needed "a Coke and a pill". Ms. Amy came right over and called 9-1-1 and got Steve something to drink and by the time the paramedics arrived, Steve was fine again. When asked why Jenna went to Ms. Amy's house (who is a nurse), she said she was going to "Carson's" house, but he lives across the street and she wasn't supposed to cross the road without an adult. :) She said that she told Ms. Amy to call 9-1-1. Amy wasn't sure that Steve was indeed diabetic and Jenna couldn't think of the word to say.

All that to say, I'm just so proud of her for being such a big girl in knowing how to get help and that it was the time to get it. She didn't go across the street or roaming the neighborhood and she didn't even cry. She said her throat felt like it needed to, but she didn't. We have now talked with her about the times it is appropriate to dial 9-1-1 and when it's not and made sure there is an easy-open bottle of OJ and some sugar tablets within her reach should this happen again.

What a big girl my "little girl" is turning into! Next time you see her, give her a big pat on the back...we have continued to praise her for her efforts...

OK, that's all the big news here. Steve's passed 3 kidney stones the past week (OUCH!) and I'm fighting a sinus infection...but we'll survive!

3.01.2007

WELCOME BABY HAILEY HEPLER!

Some of you may know our friends from church, Karen & Jeff Hepler. They are dear friends of ours and they also had reversal surgery a while back and were very quickly successful in getting pregnant.

This afternoon, their baby Girl, Hailey Renee Hepler was born. She arrived weighing 7lbs 1oz and 19 inches long! I have no further details as of yet, but I am very excited for them and I know Karen and Jeff are so happy to finally meet this miracle they've been waiting on for 9 long months!

Congratulations Karen & Jeff! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAILEY!

2.25.2007

A Baby Shower

Well, it's over...the baby shower for Micah that is. It was yesterday and I co-hosted with Micah's mom, Pam. It was alot for just the two of us to plan ourselves, but we managed to pull it off with no hitches. We were concerned that there wouldn't be many people there and not many gifts, but there were plenty (I think we had about 12-13) and there were gifts everywhere!

As always, the Taylor Family was very generous. I continue to be proud at the way this family steps up and together in times of need. It's one of the most non-dysfunctional families I've known and I am honored to be part of them! They are truly one of a kind! Grandmother (Matriarch of the Taylors) called last night just to tell me what a great job I did with the shower and how well it went. She knew how stressed I was I'm sure. Where else do you find support like that?!

Anyway, the four parents (2 bios and 2 steps) went in together and bought the travel system. You know, it's the HUGE stroller and car seat combo? We got that and then Jenna picked out the cutest outfit...shoes, socks, hat and everything! She picked out the baby book too. I was very pleased and spent way too much! I'm about to go back out to the registry to see what all is still left to buy.

Not sure if I updated on this before, but Steve's eye surgery went off without a hitch. After they actually took him back to do the surgery, it was only about 5 minutes and he was out. He came home that day to rest, but after that, the next day he was back at work like nothing had happened. We are indeed so blessed!

For those of you that read my last post about Thailand and my support letter, thanks for your comments. I have not sent the actual letters out, but am going to this week. I picked up stamps yesterday...am going to try and print them out today.

Let's see...anything going on with the rest of us? Not really. I'm up earlier than the family today. I am going to be really late for church if I don't get moving along...this afternoon, I'll spend doing laundry and cleaning the house (which is a wreck!). I will also try to do my taxes and support letters. All before leaving at 5pm to be back at church. Think I can do it? We'll see. For my HCA friends, I logged almost 10,000 steps yesterday, but I was on my feet all day with the shower. I was so glad when it was over!

Sandra

2.19.2007

I'm going to Thailand. What can YOU do to help?

Below is a letter that many of you will be receiving soon via mail or email. Please consider how you might support me in this journey.

Dear Friend:

I am writing to you on behalf of my missions team from Brentwood Baptist Church (BBC). We are preparing for a trip to Chiang Mai, Thailand this summer. You are receiving this letter because you are important to me.

I will be traveling June 9 and returning June 18. My team will be hosting a conference for Southern Baptist missionaries in the Southeast Asia region. We are responsible for the childcare, worship, preaching, workshops, hospitality, bookstore, and medical support for the conference. There will be over 500 men, women and children attending this event, and BBC is sending over 110 people to support this important time of teaching and encouragement to the missionaries and their families.

I ask for your support as I prepare for this trip and as I travel. You can support me in several ways:

1. You can give financial support. The total cost of my trip is $2,000. Several of our team members are relying completely on the generous giving of people like you. We have stepped out in faith, not knowing how God will provide for us, but believing that He will. Giving is an important way that you can participate in mission work. Although you may not ever go to Thailand, you can send others, as well as encourage and equip missionaries.

You can give by writing a check to Brentwood Baptist Church. Please designate on your check “Thailand”. You may designate your money to support me by specifying my name in the memo line. If you so choose, you can request that your gift remain anonymous and send it directly to Brentwood Baptist Church Missions Office.

If you are a Brentwood Baptist church member, you can give your money during the regular Sunday morning offering; just remember to designate it for me if that is your desire. If you are not a Brentwood Baptist church member, you can mail your check to me so that I can be sure it is applied appropriately.

No matter what amount you are able to give, please know that every dollar is needed and is gratefully received.

2. You can give me and my team your prayers. If you are unable to give financially, you can pray. Please pray for us to prepare. We have children’s Bible school to organize, worship services and seminars to plan, medical resources to obtain, hospitality gifts to acquire, etc. We need extra time for Bible study and prayer. We will be seeing to the many details of family and work that must be taken care of in our absence. We need to go healthy, rested and ready to hit the ground running.

We know that because we are entering into real, spiritual warfare, Satan will discourage and distract us. Crises always arise. Team members get sick. Family members get sick. It is often hard for team members to sleep well. And sometimes we are downright afraid. When you pray for us, you are literally joining our team, standing along side us.

I thank you in advance for all the ways you will support me. You have received this letter because I know that you will be faithful to do so. If you would like to continue to receive updates on our prayer requests and preparations, please email me at the address below. I will also add your name to my email distribution list to receive my journal during my trip.


Gratefully Yours,
Sandra D. Taylor

2.14.2007

Mooooooo....


Read carefully because this is a story you'll probably never hear anywhere else. First, let me preface the story by saying that Steve is fine...

Yesterday, as always, Steve left for work about 5:30am. He likes to cut through some backroads (we live in somewhat of a country area) to get to the interstate. I usually get up in time to tell him goodbye and hear him leave. Yesterday was no exception. At 5:45am, the home phone rings. I knew immediately something wasn't right because NO ONE calls that early in the morning. It was Steve. He'd been in an accident on one of the backroads.

So, he's telling me the story, tells me to call the cops because the road is dark, there's no lights etc. Fortunately, there wasn't another car involved. But he did hit something in the road. A rather large something...something that didn't moooooooooove out of the way in time...

It was a cow.

Yes. A cow.

Evidently, there was a fence down and a bunch of black cows had been out roaming. Of course, with no street lights, Steve just didn't see them in time and they were spread out across both lanes of the street, so there was no way he could have avoided hitting them. Ok...quit laughing long enough to at least read the rest of the story!

For all of you animal lovers, you'll be happy to know that the cow/s were fine. It was the truck that lost the fight. As most of you know, Steve drives a sleek, black, 2005 F150 super cab. It's his pride and joy. The only new vehicle he's had in years and years. And it's a sweet ride. And. It was torn to pieces by this cow. He was able to drive it back home, but he had to have it towed to the body shop. The initial estimate yesterday was upwards of $5000 in damage, but today, the shop called and said they had to have the insurance adjuster come back out because when they started tearing it down, they found "supplemental" damage, so we are climbing toward the $6000 mark. Steve's driving a rental Ford Taurus.

But the good news is that he's OK. He has some neck/shoulder/arm pain from where the seatbelt caught, but hopefully it's just a little soreness. Tonight he had some bleeding inside his eye which might or might not be related because he also has diabetic retinopathy. We were on our way to the emergency room from church because he could see bleeding in his eye. But the doctor called before we got to the ER and said it would be fine till tomorrow when he can get in to see the doctor.

We are very fortunate that he didn't run off the road or hit another car. Plus, we have good insurance etc. so there is much to be thankful for. Plus, once we get through this, it is a rather funny story...

More to come...

2.09.2007

Hard times

I've debated over the past few days whether to even post this or not. But I think part of my working through is talking it out and this is a unique forum to "talk". First, let me caveat what I am going to say to those who don't know me well or don't understand what a personal relationship with Christ means...I have no doubt that God is in control each and every day in my life and I feel that struggling in my faith will only serve to make it stronger...but right now, I'm in that valley and hence this blog...

As most of you know, we were unable to conceive through traditional methods. I went through one in-vitro fertilization cycle back in 2000 and Jenna Grace was the miracle that was produced. Because that cycle was quick and successful on the first try, I had no doubt that a sibling would be as easy when we had the money to try again. Well, I was suprised when 4 years and 4 cycles later and we were out of money, cycles and patience and no sibling for Jenna Grace.

And after all of that, I just knew that God had something bigger and better in mind for me. And I was OK with that for a while...content. But lately, after a combination of other things, I have become rather angry and upset with God and the way things have turned out for me.

I was raised in church and have always prayed and done my devotional daily. But lately, I feel like no matter how hard I try, I cannot get close to God. I have tried time after time to improve my prayer life and my Bible Study time both individually and with Steve. And each time, I start and may do well for a day or two or week or two and then I can't hold it together and it falls by the wayside or simply becomes a matter of habit instead of a relationship. And after so many times of trying and failing, I have gotten weary of trying.

Not only that, but now I find myself angry at the way things have turned out with having another child. And if I hear one more person say that "You never know...God might still work a miracle", I will scream. I KNOW GOD CAN TURN MY INFERTILITY INTO A MIRACLE CHILD! I trust that He will if it's in His will...but I just don't know if I can stand hearing that comment one more time! I stand by and watch young, unwed girls get pregnant not even trying and I get very angry at God at why He would allow something like that to happen. I'll not lie...watching my own step-daughter move through her pregnancy has been hard...harder than I imagined it would be. I don't understand. And I know that some things are not meant for me to understand this side of heaven, I am still angry and confused at why God would allow this. My prayers have changed from asking for a miracle to asking God simply to remove this desire from me if it isn't in His will. I mean, I think that's a reasonable request right? If I'm not going to be blessed with another child, then at least give me that peace so that I don't desire it anymore. We all know women who talk about holding a friend or family member's newborn and they say, "It was sweet, but I have NO DESIRE for more...my family is complete." I want that. I think it's the least He can grant me. And when I feel that pang of jealousy at watching a new mom, I wonder why it is that He hasn't honored my simple request. I want to fill that hole with Him, but lately, I can't seem to get that far. My prayers feel like they don't make it past the ceiling of my house. And then I get increasingly frustrated with it all. I'm tired of feeling sad and far away from God. I want to be close to Him. I want to feel Him.

So...anyway, that's what is going on with me. I know I will work my way through this somehow and that child or no child, I'll come out on the other side, but right now I feel like I'm in a spirital wasteland. I continue to search for wisdom in those that I respect...my pastor, my lifelong friend and ultimately My God. Stay tuned...

On a lighter note, today was grandparents day at Jenna's school. I talked with "Nana" (Bertie-my step-mother) early this morning and she was already under the weather and did not think she'd be able to make it. Jenna was very disappointed, but understood that sometimes people get sick. Unfortunately, Steve's parents were unable to make it. But when I picked Jenna up this afternoon, the first words out of her mouth was to tell me that Nana surprised her today at school. She said, "I was coming down the hall and saw Nana, but didn't realize she was my grandparent until she said, 'Hi, Jenna Grace' and I said, 'Hey! There's Nana!!!'" She was so surprised and pleased and I was touched that even though she didn't feel like it, she drug herself out of bed to make a 5 year old girl happy. Thank God for women like Bertie!

Thanks for listening to my ramblings...somehow just posting about them makes me feel better.

2.03.2007

"Just a dusting"...


So, given...the weatherpeople in Tennessee just can't seem to get it right. Wednesday night, they were calling for 1-2 inches of snow after midnight. I stayed up late thinking we'd have a late start Thursday. Imagine my surprise when Steve woke me up on Thursday morning to say school was in session and I'd better get moving. We did NOT get 1-2 inches...more like what the weather people would call "just a dusting" of snow. We live to the south of Nashville, so I figured Nashville probably got alot more, but no...what was there was more like frost on the cars! Jenna was totally bummed and I was too (because when it comes to snow, I'm a big kid at heart!)

So, I went to bed a little early on Thursday night to make up for the sleep deprivation. The weather people were now calling for "just a dusting" Thursday night. So, again, imagine my surprise when Steve wakes me up on Friday morning saying all the schools are closed! I look out and there's about 1-2 inches of snow outside! So, anyway, Steve went on in to work and Jenna and I stayed home. Of course, she was wide awake at 5:30am once she heard there was snow and couldn't quit looking out the windows. I'm not kidding...she couldn't even eat breakfast because she kept turning around and squealing about the snow on the deck.

I made her wait until about 11am so it wasn't so cold to bundle up and go out. She wasn't happy about that, and would ask every few minutes if it was time to go yet. Oh, don't I remember those days as a child where time seemed to drag until your mom would let you go out and play in the snow! So, about 11am, we bundled up (yes, the both of us) and went to play.

There wasn't enough to do much with, but she did make a little snowman...she was calling him "Mister Snowman"...or "Snowy"...and we ran around the yard and threw snowballs at each other. This is her first "real" snow...we got about 10 inches a few years back but she was only about 18 months old, so she doesn't remember it and she didn't care for it then because it was just cold and wet which is what I'm sure her diaper felt like most of the time!

Sorry it's been so long since I've posted...it's just been busy for the past few weekends. This weekend started out as no exception to that, however, my breakfast plans today just got canceled, so I have the morning free. I'm wondering if my dear husband and daughter would like to have breakfast with me? But it's past 8:30am now, so maybe it's too late. Oh well...on the bright side, I'm up, showed and all made up, so I'm ready to go in case we find some reason to leave.

I don't know if the forecast is calling for snow anytime soon, not that it matters anyway. I'll keep you all posted!

1.20.2007

New toys...and other thoughts

We both have new toys!! As most of you know I am going to Thailand on a mission trip with the church in June of this year. Steve and I wanted an easy way to communicate and so we purchased a laptop computer yesterday with wireless internet ability. The hotel we'll be staying at in Thailand has wireless internet, so we decided to try this. We've been wanting a laptop for a while, but thought we wouldn't get one until our desktop was ready to be replaced. But when we found one for $499 at Best Buy, well...it was a deal we couldn't pass up. And of course, while I was working out the details of my laptop, Steve was picking out his new toy. It's a 42 inch plasma TV. He's been wanting one of those flat screens that hang on the wall, but I finally talked him out of that. Suffice it to say that we've been blessed financially here lately, so we are enjoying it (after tithing of course!)

Work for me has been nuts. We lost a grand total of 13 folks in HR due to the layoff, 3 of which were in benefits where I work. I picked up a good portion of the work of 2 of those that were laid off and it is busy! I'm loving it though. I am working in my old stomping grounds of retirement and then still in health and group benefits, but no longer doing vendor relations/appeals, but liaisoning from a systems standpoint. It's a great opportunity and hey! at least I have a job, so no complaints from me.

Steve's job situation is getting better. At first, he got discouraged, but I truly believe it was Satan trying to steal his joy. Now, things are evening out, he's learning lots every day and he is starting to see the form his new job will take. The new company is a lot slower in getting stuff taken care of than MLSP was, so that really takes some getting used to. It's tough because working at HCA, it's hard to imagine a company surviving that doesn't run like clockwork. But not every business is like HCA and I have to keep that in mind and sometimes have to remind Steve too.

Oh, and another piece of interesting news...I got my hair cut last weekend. Got it cut off.
O-F-F. Off. It's shorter than I've ever had it. I have yet to have someone take a picture. I like it I guess. It's different and I like the ease of washing and styling. But I'm not sure shorter hair is me. I guess we'll see as it grows out. I'd like to have it long enough to pull back by the time Thailand rolls around because it's pretty hot in June there.

Lastly, a big congratulations to my great-nephew, and Jenna Grace's cousin, Garrett. Last Sunday he made a profession of faith! PTL! We don't have a date for his baptism yet, but what a wonderful blessing to watch your child take that step! I am so excited for his mom, day and grandparents! I can't imagine the joy. I just hope that Jenna Grace will follow his lead at some point. I am sure that his baptism will bring lots of questions from Jenna. The only thing she said today was that "he'll get water in his eyes" when I told her he would get baptized!

Well, that's about it for me. Nothing really going on here. Work, home, bed and then start it all over again. I'll keep you posted.

1.16.2007

Important update

OK, I am ready to give you all an update regarding what's been going on with us the past few months. As some of you may know, over a year ago, we went through 4 in-vitro cycles in an effort to get a sibling for Jenna. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, those cycles were not successful. At the end, we were both ready to get off the emotional rollercoaster. My body was seeing the effects of the daily shots and my emotions were shot. Since that time, we focused on our family, what we did have and decided what, if anything, we would do. Around...maybe March of last year, we ended up with the name of a surgeon in Arkansas who is a Christian and did vasectomy reversals as part of his "ministry"...meaning, it was done in his office for a very reduced rate. We did a little research and decided to wait until some friends of ours at church went through the procedure themselves. They did and felt that he was very nice and capable. He prayed with them before the surgery etc. and so we made the appointment for July. Well, believe it or not I was the one who got cold feet. I canceled the appointment citing the fact that 3 weeks post-surgery would be our big Disney vacation and I didn't want anything to interfere with that. Then, 3 months later, we found out our friends from church were expecting. So, I made the appointment for September.

September, we went up to Arkansas for a weekend, had the surgery, which to Steve's surprise wasn't as bad as imagined, and came home to wait. They were only successful in reconnecting one side, but the other side was easily reconnected. They told us to "try" for 3 months and if not successful to go in for an analysis which would tell us if the surgery was indeed successful.

Well, we just had that analysis done and the results are in. While technically, the results would indicate a successful surgery, there's not going to be enough there to result in a pregnancy (outside a miracle). I share this with you so that you all know and understand what we've been through. Also, it will help you understand why Jenna will not have any full siblings. We have tried and prayed and cried and this is the hand we've been dealt. I know that if it is in God's will for us to have another child, He can turn those low numbers into a miracle. I am not going on any type of birth control, however, I am not counting days or doing anything to promote conception.

To each of you, I thank you for your support, prayers and friendship with all we've been through. We are not surprised by this news and while it's not exactly what we'd hoped for, we know that God knows what is best for us more than we do and we have to have faith in Him.

I just wanted to share with you and thank you for everything. Other than that, life here is good. There is lots going on and I'll try to update you in the next few days on that. Stay tuned...